THE BIG DIG Once upon a time there used to be a me. Now there are empty remains where there once was a celebrator of life. Feelings I felt are no longer there. The person I was, is gone. Ive been hiding in an empty grave for such a long time there is no more me. Where there was laughter; there are now tears. I was brave, now I am fearful. Where there was passion, now I am colorless. Where there was compassion, I find contempt. As I reach down within me to find these emotions I am shocked. I have been living like this for over ten years, not totally unaware of my misery but trying to stay on the surface of the grief as best I could without feeling anything. Ten years of mourning for the death of a husband and lover; the father of my children. Ten years that I have been laying in the mud. I can feel the shovel digging at my heart as I excavate the canyons of the soul I have been guarding for so long. The same shovel I used to bury my best friend. Patricia Rooney English Composition Professor Al Derouser March 8, 2000 THE BIG DIG -Page 2 I look in the mirror and even my physical self does not resemble who I once was. Would I be recognized if I were to be seen by someone who knew the other me? I cant distinguish myself from this ghost Ive been living as all these years. The empty shadows in my eyes are not familiar, for when I looked in them in the yesteryear they glistened. The gray pallor of my skin does not compare with the healthy, vibrant surface that once shone through. My shoulders once aligned are now hunched. The body once sensuous is now lifeless and dull by comparison. As I plod instead of strut through life I do not acknowledge me, for I do not know who I am. My fog filled brain carries me through each day as I search for peace, yearning to escape from pain. I have given my pow…
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